2015. 2016…

As I am writing this, I am alone in my room and there is about 4 more hours to the New Year. Last year, I spent my New Year’s eve with my close friends, watching a movie and playing our very own UNO game and laughed like crazy. It’s been a crazy ride, 2015. I call 2015 as a year of change.

In the middle of December 2014, I made a move to quit this stupid job I had when I was in Shah Alam. I did it, not knowing whether I would be accepted for a job that I went for an interview a month before. I just wanted to quit because I simply was not happy there. So I did – and it is one of the best decisions that I have ever made it in my entire life.

I started 2015 being jobless – but happy. I spent my days sleeping and at night, I would stay up and play DotA with my friends. Sometimes, we’d go for very long hangouts and play cards. But it was fun being jobless during that time. I was so free to do anything I wanted and it was fulfilling.

I stayed jobless until end of February. In March, I started my new job at UNIMAS. I never actually wanted to teach, but the job is good because it provides me with stability, and the pay is good too. The downside is, it’s all the way in Kuching, and my friends were all the way in Shah Alam. But I made the decision to go, because I thought it was the right thing to do at that time – and indeed it is.

Broke up in March too. Been wanting to do it, but I was too chicken to do so. So the job came, and plus the distance thing, was the “reason” why I wanted to break up but deep down, I knew that my partner’s cheating ways was just too much for me to handle and to forgive, well let’s just say I have done that way too many times.

Why I call 2015 as a year of change it’s mainly because of my decisions to move back to Kuching and start my job as a Language Teacher. I have never been so challenged in a job before and my current position allows me to be flexible with my time and, like I said, challenged. There’s so much to learn (and I have got a long way to go) with this job that everyday I discover new things. And I have to learn, and I have to adapt very quickly. That’s the challenge and I kinda like it.

I got my own car in July (which I am very thankful for). Having my own car gives me a different kind of freedom which I have never felt and it feels great.

I tell myself everyday that God would have His reasons to put me where I am right now and as I breathe, I am still uncovering His plans for me.

But whatever His plans are for me now, they’ve been really life-changing. At the end of each day, I would just look up to the ceiling and just smile at the things that I had gone through throughout 2015. It’s been a roller-coaster, and a wild one at that.

I hope 2016 will be more of a stable year for me. Change is good, but too much of it can drive you crazy. I know.

For now, goodbye 2015 and hello 2016!